Let's be real, all of us were secretly hoping deep, deep down inside that after Lamar Odom survived his life-threatening drug overdose against all odds he would realize just how good he had it when he was blissfully in love with the most down-to-earth personality on Keeping Up With The Kardashians, our wanna-be bestie Khloe Kardashian. And after watching the episode where Lamar and Khloe joke about getting married again ("if you're lucky," as Khloe put it) we couldn't help but imagine the pair walk down the aisle once again — and hey, maybe even reintroduce their hit TV show, Khloe and Lamar! A girl can dream, can't she?
But all of those hopes were quickly dashed when Khloe shared a heart-wrenching post on Instagram detailing (what we assume) is drama between her and her ex. "You don't know what you got till it's gone," she opens up with to her fans before delving into a lengthy piece about truly appreciating what you have versus what you want.
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"Don't lose something you have for something you think you want," the KUWTK star wrote. "What you have now was once everything you prayed you wanted. Think of how lucky you are to have someone you can be completely comfortable around, that is a true gift and one that should be cherished at all times."
Is it just us or is everyone else bawling their eyes out right now, too?
She went on to say, "Too many times people don't realize what they have because they are out there looking for something they assume is better. The grass ain't always greener kids. 'Be thankful for what you have; you'll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you don't have you will never, ever have enough.'"
Shortly after posting the rather poignant letter, Khloe deleted the Instagram and replaced it with this:
If you're a little confused, we're totally in the same boat as you. But apparently this little Instagram stint isn't the only sign of trouble brewing between the ex-NBA star and the TV personality. According to People, Khloe isn't speaking to Lamar anymore. A source revealed, "The times she went to see him recently, he was pretty messed up. She's sick of it. She feels like she's done everything she can and it's just ridiculous at this point."
Khloe, our hearts are breaking for you. Here's to hoping you'll find happiness sooner rather than later!