THE WEDDING IS OFF!! 
The shiteth hath hiteth the fan-eth! I never thought things could possibly get any worse that what had been going on but, THEY DID! From the top? Well, considering that things still hadn't been going that well between us, even through our counseling sessions, things were actually alot worse than what they seemed. These last few months, I KNOW I have not been myself, my friends have asked me DAILY, "what's wrong?" I've fallen into a depressed state and it's starting to get harder to pull myself out. We had actually already broken up and I was in the process of finding a new place to live. Last week, after an emotionally draining and strainuous day of work, I came home to find my apartment turned upside down!! It looked like it had been ransacked!!! The front door was even broken! Living room furniture was everywhere! The dressers in both the bedrooms were broken! My clothing on the floor! Trash EVERYWHERE! I mean you girls can't even imagine! Right away, the feeling that came over me, "We got robbed!" But as I started looking around I noticed that everything was still there. My jewelry was all over the bedroom, but it was still there. I ran to my apt manager's office to see what the hell was going on and that's where the bomb was dropped. She explained to me that there was no robbery. My FH or ex-FH and my roommate had both been ARRESTED! There were K-9s and all. Then on top of that, (I guess cause she didn't notice the "WHAT THE F^&K" sign on my forehead), she then tells me that they had to file a notice for EVICTION!!! Not really giving a SH%T at that moment, I walked out of the office and went back to my apartment to cry. My FH didn't or wasn't able to call me till after 7pm (I had gotten home at 5) only to give me a number to call after 9 so I can speak with someone about his bail bond. I asked where the hell he was and why the apt looked the way it did. I also told him just to teach him a lesson that I should just leave his ass in there too, but I didn't. With the help of 1 of my good friends, we were able to bail both out at around 5 the next morning. We all went back to apt to begin picking it back up. I had to sit back and let myself cry, it was too much to take in. All in a matter of hours! FH and I sat down for a long talk. He cried! I couldn't believe it! In the 9yrs we've known eachother, in the 5yrs that we have been together, I had never ONCE seen him shed a tear. But he was bawling like a baby that night. Telling me that he was sorry over and over and for me not to leave him now, now that he needed me the most. I told him how furious I was and I didn't know how much more of this I could take. I told him that I hated him for putting me through all that I have, (a little harsh, I know.) I told him the wedding was off and I didn't want to hear another word about it. I am SO completely exhausted! 
I really don't know what else to do now! No more wedding plans, no more FH, no more home! How the hell am I supposed to find a new place in 10days!!!?? Oh, btw, with all the crap that happened, FH also lost his job of 5 years!! Everything has gone to SH%T!!!! I am so depressed.
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