God, you girls are awesome!
I made a big mistake last night. After they found out we split, FFH's parents sent over a bottle of wine (I have no idea what the motive for that was... rich people are weird... my mom suggested it might be to congratulate me on my decision, haha). Last night, because I was tired of the crushing I-hate-this-so-much-I-can't-breathe feeling, I drank. A lot. It's the first time in my whole life I gave my problems over to alcohol because I didn't want to handle them and I really regret it. Never again. I didn't DO anything stupid like sleep with FFH or start another fight, but still.
I forgot to mention: I called FFFIL a few nights ago and asked what he wanted me to do about the car. He said lots of nice things about me, including that he gave me the car because I was a hard-working young person who deserved it, not just because I was his son's fiancee; in the end he told me that it's more important to him that I get safely moved and settled, and to call him after that. And that he's not in any hurry to hear from me. And maybe then he'll just let me buy out FFH's half of the car for a few thousand. This is the happiest ending I could have reasonably hoped for, so I'm just gonna count my blessings and run with it!
23 HOURS, PEOPLE -- LESS THAN ONE DAY!! My dad will be here in a few hours to help me move... he and I and friends are meeting at 10 AM tomorrow to get things moving... this day seemed like forever away when I first started this thread, I can't believe it's almost here. I know there's gotta be a couple girls out there reading this and wondering if they can do it. You can do it. Look at your options, make a plan, and count the days. Call in favors from friends and family if you have to -- it's a serious situation. (If anyone has any idea how unhappy you are, most people will probably be thrilled to help you get out.) It will be terrible. You will have moments when you feel bad about what you're doing and think maybe it's not worth the strife. Make a list of reasons why you want to leave, it'll help you keep your resolve even if you never actually show it anybody. Obviously the situation is a lot more complicated if you've moved somewhere far from your people, there's mutual property, there's kids, I can't pretend to know what to do about any of that. Just do what you have to do... you have to take care of yourself first. I should maybe go back to work now!
Message was edited by TulipOHare on Jun 23, 2006 11:13 AM
