I suppose the "wanting" to be confused comes from not really wanting this to have happened at all. I really want to believe that it wasn't sexual in nature and I may be keeping up the "confused" part about it because I don't want to acknowledge that my best guy friend is trying to "get in my pants"
I had a more direct conversation with him today and basically said that I felt the entire gist of his conversation with me that night was extremely sexual in nature. He once again told me that he didn't mean it like that and more meant it like, "Going skydiving" I still feel odd about it but because we've been friends for such a long time I'm just going to leave it at that.
Should he try anything again (I'm praying he won't) I'll know without a shadow of a doubt that his intentions are anything but pure.