this is more of a vent....I have been impatiently waiting for going on 2 years for the proposal. (we have been dating for 3 1/2 years) I have been driving myself crazy waiting. Ever since I can remember I have known that being a wife is my calling in life. Now that I have the love of my life and someone I want to be a wife too, the desire to be a wife is even stronger. I know he wants to marry me, he is just taking forever.Last Christmas I thought he was going to propose. Then again when I traveled with him and his parents to CA, might I mention over my birthday, so I thought it was the perfect time and the whole week I thought He was going to propose. I anticipated the moment the whole trip. Alas when my birthday finally came, I cried at the end of the night because i finally realized it wasnt going to happen. I felt like an idiot. Now, I am too scared to anticipate it. I have never been so disappointed.
There is no other person for me so its not even an option to move on. I am so in love but so impatient. any advice?