Okay, my turn! But where do I begin? I have always been large. When I graduated from college and moved to a place where I didn't know anyone, I got a rec pass through work and started working out as something to do. I lost 50 pounds in a year. I started around 230 pounds, and my lowest was 184. I didn't start with the intent to lose weight, but rather to feel better about myself and be healthy.
Well, around the time I started dating FH, I started gaining all my weight back. We used to work together and were always so busy and ate fast food a lot and didn't have time to exercise. Of course we also had the dates where you eat too much, lazy days where you do nothing but eat... It was slow, about a year in the making.
I just moved and I am again in a place where I know no one (except FH) and don't have much to do. I joined the YMCA and I have been exercising at least four times a week for about nine weeks now. I don't really see results, but I do FEEL better.
FH keeps telling me I look like I've lost weight, but I don't know if he's just trying to be nice. We've had such a role reversal because he is a big guy too, and so self conscious. Before and even while I gained all my weight back I had to keep telling him he looked good and I loved him the way he was. Now he's the one telling me that.
Wedding is over a year away. I figure I won't even think about looking at dresses until the first of the year, giving me plenty of time to lose weight. And again, I'm trying to go about it for health instead of weight. Weight will come off with the better health. My mom just got diagnosed with diabetes and she has arthritis (she's bigger than me) and heart probems run in our family too. Its hard not to think about all of this.
